Sunday, August 14, 2005

Transformation Begins - Incognito

In 2002, I continued the psychotherapy I had begin in 2001 and when my insurance stopped paying after 26 visits, I paid the invoices myself (I didn’t pay off my last medical bill until earlier this year). When I returned to work from a forced leave of absence, my department head had been through everything in my office and on my computer looking for reasons to discipline me, fortunately, none of the allegations I faced when I returned held water, but my department head did hold a grudge. As such, I lost my contract, and my pay increases and bonuses were only a fraction of what had been before this unusually embarrassing episode for the department head. She was identified to be on a “witch hunt” by the powers that be and I was vindicated. In spite of all this, I was able to set aside any hard feelings towards her and my effort to ensure she knew I had no grudge was a success. Although I had done nothing wrong, my overtures to her were as genuine as my attempts to assure Rodney that there was always a place for him in Nikque’ life and even though I sought an official custody agreement, and although I began to notice that Nikque’ behavior was disturbingly anxious when she visited her dad (it was this year that the crying begin), I sought to resolve the problems, not to dissolve Rodney from Nikque’ life even though it was clear that the problem was associated with going to his house. Reading through the e-mails I previously sent as well as the court transcripts and motions filed provide insight into Rodney’s refusal to take responsibility for his relationship with Nikque. Every problem in his relationship with her, according to him, are my fault.

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